Thursday, April 26, 2007

Cool but gross

I suffer hugely from allergies. Have since I was a kid. Never found anything that has worked. Been on multiple meds, and nada. Always suffer come this time of year, but worse in the fall. Have to sleep sitting up, and am usually so damn medicated I can barely function, and that's just to be able to open my eyes.

So, watching Dr. Oz on Oprah today, and at first I was grossed out, but I thought , "what the hell". He had this thing called a Neti, which is basically for a nasal enema. You use warm salt water and basically a seive type instrument to pour the water into your sinus cavity to clear it out. I did not have one of the nifty little bowls he used, but I created my own, using a kitchen funnel and a cup of water. You pour it in and it basically goes in one nostril and comes out the other. For a breif bit, it feels a little like drowning, but then, ah...so good. I stood up and emptied all the snot out of my nose (sorry, told you it was gross) and I...Could...Breathe! It got stuff out I could feel had been in there for perhaps years.

I have practiced yoga for about 5-6 years, and I have never hard of this. I knew I loved yoga for a really great reason. I highly recommend it for anyone who has sinus issues. Granted, it only worked for about an hour, but I have a cold, and my allergies, so having relief for even that short period of time was awesome.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

34 Things

1.) Q. Can you cook?
A. I can and I do, but not every day.


2.) Q. What was your dream growing up?
A. To be a ballerina. Or do you mean after the age of four?


3.) Q. What talent do you wish you had?
A. Coordination, of any kind.


4.) Q. Favorite place?
A. My house.


5.) Q. Favorite vegetable?
A. Tomatoes out of the garden and cucumbers.

6.) Q. What was the last book you read?
A. Running with Scissors.


7.) Q. What zodiac sign are you?
A. Libra


8.) Q. Any tattoo's or piercings?
A. Ears and belly button peircing, 2 tattoos.

9.) Q. Worst habbit?
A. Promise not to tell? I still suck my thumb at night to fall asleep.


10.) Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A. No. I'm a cop's wife. He'd kill me!


11.) Q. What is your favorite sport?
A. Participant: running. Observer: baseball.


12.) Q. Negative or optimistic outlook?
A. Typically optomistic, just don't talk to me at work, cause you won't get the true picture then.

13.) Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me for hours and hours?
A. Talk, after the panic settled into a low grade anxiety.

14.) Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A. Raped at 15.


15.) Q. Tell me one wierd fact about you?
A.


16.) Q. Do you have any pets?
A. Two dogs, a beagle and a chihuahua. And my husband, if we're counting those.


17.) Q. Do you know how to do the macarena, if so why?
A. Sadly yes. Learned it in college when it was the hip dance. I'm feeling quite ancient.

18.) Q. What time is it where you are now?
A. 7:24p.


19.) Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A. Creepiest things ever, which is bizarre when you consider i have two good friends who are clowns.

20.) Q. If you could change one thing about how you look what would it be?
A. Lose about 25 pounds.

21.) Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A. Typically crime, as long as we weren't committing any felonies.

22.) Q. What color eyes do you have?
A. hazel

23.) Q. Ever been arrested?
A. No


24.) Q. Bottle or draft?
A. Either. Like both.

25.) Q. If you won $100,000.00 today what would you do with it?
A. Pay off all our bills and quit my job.

26.) Q. What is your favorite drink?
A. Water.


27.) Q. Where's your favorite place to hang out besides your house?
A. The Y.

27.) Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
A. Kind of. Don't give it too much thought.


28.) Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A. be with my family or read.

29.) Q. Biggest pet Peeve?
A. People who aren't genuine.

30.) Q. Do you swear a lot?
A. hell. i would dream of doing that!

31.) Q. In one word how would you describe yourself?
A. Survivor.

32.) Q. What's your favorite color?
A. Green.

33.) Q. Do you go to church?
A. Not unless I have to.

34.) Q. Will you reply to this message so that I can do the same for you?
A. Yes

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Should I stay or should I go?

My supervisor told me today that the 'big boss' is likely going to be pushing me soon to accept a full-time posotion. I currently work 20 hours a week, and it works very well for me and my family. Plus, I don't really love my job. There are some parts I can't stand (one doctor in particular who shall remain nameless...) but I do love my clients. Most social workers can't claim that. Overall, it's a good job.

They are not forcing me yet, but I am afraid that might happen soon. It has been this way for basically the two years I have worked this schedule, and my job has never been stable (it's non-profit, grant-funded) in the 5 1/2 years I've been there.

I am not sure what to do. We could surely use the money, but I am not sure that the money is worth losing the experience I am getting with my son. Plus, we are considering having another child soon, and if that happens, I will NOT work full-time. I do not want to be in the position to have to re-negotioate my job all over again.

I would go somewhere else, but my schedule is pretty consitricted due to having to work around my husband's. And if I go full-time, it means we'll need to find a day care provider I trust - and I don't even really trust our parents, who are the only ones who have ever watched our child.

I had some extremely bad experiences in day care when I was a child and I will not let that happen to my son. I know there are trustworthy people out there, but will I ever be able to trust anyone?

And can they legally force me to choose, when I have a contract stating my position is part-time? I even agreed when I signed it that should I want to return full-time, that they would not be obligated to give it to me.

I am so torn.

My options:
-Return to full-time, in order to keep my job, and put my child in day care. My husband wouldn't necessarily be able to change his schedule, so this would also mean NEVER seeing him.
-Stay as long as possible with my current schedule and risk losing it one day because they decide they can't continue to keep me at part-time. (Plus, this way I face excessive scrutiny because they are looking for any reason to fire me. Right now, since they can do nothing based on my stellar job performance, they are picking apart my unplanned absences. I was out twice, for two days a piece because I was sick. Really sick. And I work with immuno-comprimised people who can't afford to get sick. They are counting that as four days against me, not as two seperate instances, even though every other day I have taken off - four days - have been scheduled. Plus, this is all accrued PTO, so it's time I have to take.)
-Get the hell out of there and find full-time employment elsewhere (I've looked, there are no part-time jobs in this area, in my field) - where most likely I'll deal with a whole other load of crap... Plus have to leave clients I love and co-workers who are awesome (Jenn!)

I feel so stuck! Help!?!