Noodle's iTunes meme

How many total songs? 495 on my laptop (desktop has over 4000)

Sort by Song Title. What's the first song? Ache for you by Ben Lee
Sort by Song Title. What's the last song? 23 Charlotte St by Teressa Wilcox (local artist, and yes I know where 23 Charlotte St. is)

Sort by Time. What's the shortest song? 1:45 Because You're Mine, Bryan Ferry (because really, what else is there to say)
Sort by Time. What's the longest song? 15:15 Foo Fighters live on Radio 1 from Brighton, Aug 17, 2004 Live concert.

Sort by album. What's the first song? Call My Name by Ronnie Day
Sort by album. What's the last song? Obey Me by Lords of Acid (that is not the saongs title btw, so if anyone knows the real name and can help me out it would be much appreciated)

Sort by Play Count. What are the top ten songs?

If You Want Me - Marketa Inglova

I Want Somebody Badly - Jeff Buckley

Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence

Last Goodbye - Jeff Buckley

Coconut Skins - Damien Rice

Secret Silken World - David Baerwald

Keep What Ya Got - Ian Brown

Nine Million Bicycles - Katie Melua

All in My Mind - Love an Rockets

Hold You in My Arms - Ray LaMontagne

Sort by Last Played. What are the top 10 songs?

One Man Wrecking Machine - Guster

Once - Glen Hansard and Marketa Inglove

Say It To Me Now - Glen Hansard

Rise Up With Fists! - Jenny Lewis and the Watson Twins

Just One Look - Bryan Ferry

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard and Marketa Inglova

Come to Jesus - Mindy Smith

The Chauffer - Duran Duran (wtf did the come from?)

Then Go - Glen Hansard and Marketa Inglova

Fuck and Run - Liz Phair

Search for "Sex". How many and what?

Two songs off of Metasexual by Joydrop, but no song titles, weird!

Search for "Love". How many and what?

37 Do I have to list them all????

Church (Lyle Lovett), Born for Love, So Alive (Love and Rockets), Gravity of Love, Sweet Lover Hangover, I Do Believe in Love, I Believe in Love, Love on the Rocks, Lovestain, We All Fall inLove Sometimes, Carry My Home (off Primitives album Lovely), Is it Love?, Love Sensuality Devotion, Ball of Confusion (Love and Rockets), Goodbye My Lover, Live Like Laughter, All in My Mind (Love and Rockets), You're In My Love, Living for Love, Will You Love me Tomorrow?, This Year's Love, Distant Love, I'd Love to Change the World, You Still Love Me, Down By the Water (PJ Harvey's To Bring you my Love), Lover, You should Have Come Over, Let Love Rule, Gamble Everything for Love, Holla Back Girl (Gwen Stefani's Love Angel Music Baby), Got to Be Love, No New Tale to Tell (Love and Rokets), Lover I Don't Have to Love, When the Minutes Drag (Love and Rockets), Principles of Lust (Enigma's Love Sensuality Devotion), Way Behind Me (Primitive's Lovely), One Sweet Love, I'm in Love with You

Search for "Death". How many and what?

Bubkus

My son is pregnant

This is what I came into my son's room to see today. Once I could stop laughing, I snapped some pics. He had shoved two of his blankets and his juice cup down there. He couldn't understand why mommy was laughing so hard (and having a coughing fit - why does he have to do funny shit when I am sick?).

Reflection on rehab

I came to Dallas to spend a week with a dear friend who had fallen on rough times. I saw it as a time to help her. What I did not expect was the healing that would happen in me.

Although the road to get here was bumpy, the trip was well worth the while. I can only hope I helped Joss as much as she helped me. It cemented a frendship I already knew was strong, but that other's doubted due to it's origins - meeting on MM. It also cemented another one, with Lisa, who, probably without even knowing it, opened a door for me to allow me to face some things I have been hiding from myself (and not the way you may think Lis, but in a much deeper way).

I can assure you all that Joss, although saddened about her current circumstances, is the rock we all know. She is my safe place, and a haven in the storms that rage in my head. I am not sure how my life would be without this week. I was in a downward spiral and wasn't even aware of the extent of it until now. She helped me figure out more in a week of just being in her presence than years of therapy have. She truly loves me exactly as I am. No fronts or pretenses necessary. There is no amount of gratitude I can pay her for being that person who just "gets me". She calls me on my BS, but loves me in ways I cannot love myself. She's the mirror I needed to get a good glimpse of what is in my heart. It's a friendship that defies explination, so I won't even try.

What this trip did most however, is make me reflect on my role as a parent, to confront my shortcomings, but to realize I may be doing a damn good job raising this little guy. I have gotten quality time in and found that, as a unit, we have flourished. I can look in my son's eyes with as much adoration and awe as I did the day he was born. I can realize that in many ways he saved my life. He gave me life as much as I gave it to him. I have sat with him, staring into his eyes, and am just filled with a complete-ness that I have never found in anyone else. He makes the world make sense. All I needed to do all this time was to just really look.

This week has left me feeling like life will be okay. I can live it, not just exist in it. I can make it be all I want it be, and that can be anything. My possibilities are limitless and I am not alone on the path through it. I have more love in my life, and now feel deserving of it, than I ever dreamed possible. Sometimes it takes an intervention to learn this.

50 Hours!!!

So, for those that don't know, I, in 50 hours, will be in Dallas with our dear and loving friend, Joss. I am so excited, I cannot use words well enough to describe it - she's the writer, not me. To finally meet my best friend will be an experience beyond words any way, and I can only assume one filled with tears for both of us (and not just because I am bringing Ryan and he'll drive me nuts).

I am overwhelemd by the amount of things I have to do before I go, and by the prospect of traveling alone with a not quite 3-year-old for 7 hours. It is daunting at best. But....when I get there, let the Freedom Celebration begin!

Now, if only Noodles would get her damn furniture delivered so she could join us, all would be right in my world...

If...

If I had to be an actress I'd be Kate Winslet.
If I had to be a talk show host I'd be Sally Jesse Raphael. Love the glasses.
If I had to be an entertainer I'd be an exotic dancer.
If I had to move out of this country I'd move to Ireland.
If I had to date a thug, I'd date, uh, I have no clue.
If I had to eat just one food forever I'd eat Guacamole.
If I had to be (taller/shorter) I'd be same as I am now, 5'8".
If I had to be a singer I'd be Damien Rice.
If I had to marry an actor, I'd marry Christian Bale.
If I had to be a flower, I'd be a tulip.
If I had to be a drink I'd be a vodka on the rocks. (Or better yet, right now, I'd be Nyquil)